Relnshp such a MESS .. i swear...........

Why do emotions change over a period of time in a relnshp? How can two people very much in love start finding behavioral issues ......

once the two were just perfect ..... and then not a single damn thing is perfect.......

uff i want to bad words ....... but i am such an ignorant ass that i don even know bad words :( ....

i wish things jus revert back ........ if not God give me strength to understand my partner ....

Goddd .. am sick of this ............ its all bull shit ......... this love shove doesnt hold mch value to me .atleast for the time being ;) ..........

am i suffering thru quarter life crisis??? or am i depressed ??? is something eating me from inside?? am i making a right move ???

not able to xpress anger in mother tongue sucks big time.....

i want all the fancies in life ........ wish to visit a beautiful landscape .... a blue sea ....... colorfull fishes ........wild animals .... beautiful birds ...... and all the modern amenities on the other side.......

am i not able to admire the beautiful things around ?? am i stuck ?? is my growth hampered ??

am i dragging myself?? am i not working hard?? the last question's ans is yes not working hard ......for sure :P :P

i have big dreams ........ i should focus my energy there ........ i want to move on ..........

Lost Direction !!

Well..I am 24 now..There are no set execution plans..I dont know what i actually want...
Being jobless, I have lot of time to waste :P :P ...

I keep thinking about how should i remain occupied..I study to bell CAT (hahaha)..at times whole day long but when evaluated it turns out a mere 2-3 hours job..So is my mind corroded ??

I feel I have messed it up all.. There aint anything on this not so green earth which can please me..
I dont understand what direction should i put in efforts to get the results(don know which results :P:P) ...Its like I have lost my way back to happiness..Help me the great Divine Power....Help me...

Current Mood - Disappointed

Today 10 mins back, I found my cousin online and pinged him..
asked him in our mother tongue "su kare che(what are u doin)" reply was
tnoyb(thats none of ur business)..it hurt a lil...tried to still converse..passed a link to check out...reply was let it be....don give a damn attitude :( ......asked a couple
of other questions..they were monosyllables...then gave up and said gn..

Now i am guessing whats wrong with him..or whats wrong with me..
or whats wrong with our relnshp...its really sad once we were havin great fun and now doesn matter each others' existence :( .....